i have moved myself to

 http://elaineeemyl-novel.blogspot.com

so pleaseeee Relinked me ya !

/goodbye to past and hello to future...

I'm out with this bitch cousin today , HEHEHE :D

first headed westmall with mum to renew dad and her handphone plan's and change thier line bundle to singtel from m1. get so pissed off by her. supposely getting 2 iphone4. ended up she took a lousy nokia phone for dad and 1 iphone4 for cousin's. if not now i'm already using iphone4 instead. guess what? my dad scolded her for not taking 2 iphone4 . instead getting the lousy nokia phone for him to use. mum thought that dad's wanted a new phone instead so she actually choose to get a easlier function phone for dad to use. ended up seeeee ! if not i already got iphone4 now ))))))): damnit. nevermind i already made up my mind. i shall wait for iphone5 then (:

headed to taka myself to have interview . ohya, i forget to mention that i've tender my current job. and seriously those bitches who loves to gossip really makes me feel like TEARING THEIR FUCKING SMELLY MOUTH INTO 2 PIECES ! and as for another bitch, she's pregnant. if she were to say right infront of me , she believe i will let her baby come out now when it's not even 7 months. staying in this company for so long isnt easy. so many people tender now, included me is 4, 1 had left. HAHAHA , how sad it's gonna be. not enough of manpower and etc.

after interview, headed to meet jo at Nex shopping (: followby derrick. it's been sometime i last saw him. had our dinner at aijisen. shop alittle was kind of spoil mood that i actually wanted to get a pair of heels at charles and keith but there's isnt my size ): hope didi tml go suntec can get it for me. bought a top and a bottom. and head back to clementi with jo. went pasar malam and ntuc. then cab back home.

gonna had my hair treatment on my next off day. then manicure, pedicure on my next next off day. then dye my hair ? ohmy.... i really need to save moneyyyyyy !

alright. shall stop here. gotto gooooo ~ SEEYA

Ps/ having fling also a not bad idea isnt it?

Steamboat for Birthday treat . met up with my clique of colleague to bugis to have steamboat. so funny, keep on laughing non stop . and do alot of nonsense stuff. they will always be the best group of colleague i ever work with (: and the best thing is THE 2 Gossiper wasn't there ! HEHEHE :D

having lot's of laughter and jokes with them. don't know when is it gonna be the next time we had fun like this. gonna miss it manzxc.

and after steamboat met wdhh at bugis junction there, waited josephine to get ready and meet her at clarke quay to zirca. It's the first time i went clubbing with my cousin . and i dint thought that i will be going with her either. met at zirca entry queue. finally get to go in, ended up no locker for both of us to put our bags. kind of spoil mood. met stella there as well. and we both had the same birthday (: hehehee. was real tired that day, and all i can say is jo and my leg nearly break . hahahaha ! after zirca head back to clementi mac for early breakfast and home sweet home.

dint manage to take pictures with jo, shall upload a little picture when i meet cousin up before chirstmas :D

shall upload more when imma freeee :D good bye

Ps/ finally, i made the right choice which i never even feel regretted at all.

 Was working on that day itself, amelia came down to shop and we had gift exchange. and i received lany's present and xiaoli got mine.

received bracelet and ear rings from lany's. thankyou, i love it so much. as i did mention i lost my old bracelet from Helen when i went for clubbing at rebel. and she told me she gonna replace it for me (: how nice ya. And, as for the esprit towel i received from Amelia's . she got this for all of us . how great ! 2 gifts in the afternoon ! and she told me the towel only for me to use and no one is allow to use not even my family members ! laughs .

and amelia bring lunch for us as well, due to her house having christmas party and she bring some of the food for us . Kind of nice, Yummy :P

the most funny thing is, when they ask me what i want for my birthday present, so what i answer them was "A Boyfriend" HAHAHA ! and this is what i get from lany when i having my lunch break .

she came in with this wrapping bag, and she told me it's for me. and i asked her what's that ? and she ask me to open and guess what's inside?

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 TAAAAADAAAAAA !

A PAPER BOYFRIEND ! hahaha and she told me this boyfriend will not leave you or make you sad ! which is true but very PAPER LO ! HAHAHAHA still cute of them. having colleague like them is GREAT ! so nice and sweet of them <3

after worked, headed home and took all the present and meet the rest at watt's corner. last mintue change of plan and all of us headed to donglun's house for drinking . and there we go , exchange gift time .

Hershey's kisses milk chocolate with 2 printed YOUR RUDE BOI... Stickers from Amy (:

Keychain from DongLun (: * and they say it looks like me -.- which i don't think so? "

Bracelet from Sabrina and Raymond (:

Ear rings from Jonathan AssBuddy (:

and i exchange one of the colour with jessica as she also received the same present as me (:

Necklace from mummy (:

and lastly bracelet from Jessica (:

HEHEHE :D received lots of present ya ! happy happy girl only. shall let the pictures do the talking then.

that's how much pictures i have in my phone. gotto wait for amy to send me the rest of the pictures . this is how simple our chirstmas eve .

Ps/ Last Christmas I Give You My Heart ; Before Christmas I Took Back My Heart From You.

3 more days to Chirstmas (:

6 more days to my Birthday (:

11 more days i'm gonna say Hi to 2011 and Goodbye 2010 (:

hope i will have a unforgettable birthday although i've no plans at all, but my group of dude and babe is gonna plan something for me? hehs :D

and recently my temper is getting from bad to worst, throwing tantrums, moodswings and so on. everytime i work with that bitch she would always makes me wanna punch her jiao face, especially her bloody BIG MOUTH that can't shutup ! company is also like shit ! bonus not bank in yet ! was like spoil mood only ! tsk, and i guess christmas eve is gonna be fun ? i can't wait for the gift exchange !

I WANT ALOT ALOT OF PREZZIESSSSSSSSSSS THIS YEAR ! HOHOHO !

YAY IMMA GREEDY GIRL ! (Y)

Ps/ you are no longer exist , because i had remove you away from my heart .

I'm tired of everything and i seriously need to take a break. and mum asked me about my relationship between me and him. i told mum it's over and she ask me why? i just answer dont suit one another then break lo, and that's when she says imma playgirl? Hahs, my mum like a joker. but just simply tell her one sentence and she understand why. she just asked me to concentrate on working and don't go into relationship, and she would always tells me that.

been neglecting my com com for so long. it's been abcdefgzxc i last on my com and use, busy buying christmas prezzies for my babes and dudes. and i realise shopping for prezzies is much much more fun then receiving it. BUT still i wanna Get A Lot Of Prezzies Backkkkkk ! and after getting so much of present i'm broke now !

bonus is not in yettttt ! hopefully by wed my off day i could get it. if not buddy present i cant give it to him le ! HAHAHA and so nice of buddy , he actually got me milo nugguts from the east side back to batok , and he remember i mention i feel like eating it earlier on. HAHAHA So wuxim la him ! love you deep deep la budd !

and i guess im not ready for a new r/s yet.

Ps/ you're just too good for me.

things turn ugly each and everyday, and i also don't know why. maybe it just takes some time to heal ? i don't know . i remember , a friend told me, every couple after broke off sure won't be friends anymore or even talk to one another . which i think it's not true. my ex still talks to me and i still do reply them. maybe it just depends on individual.

anyway, went jb with budd and jessica ard noon . and it was raining , kind of spoil mood but still we don't feel wasted . haha, got myself 2 tops from mango, and MAC eye shadow . and xiaoli christmas gift. and went to taman sentosa to have seafood for dinner ! Damn shiok ! we had butter salted egg crab ! and the chicken wing ! WOOOOTS ! * THUMBS UP * but buddy said the other shop beside the one we eating taste better, so next time i gonna go try ! it's a mustttt !

back to alif around 10plus, meet up amy and dong lun , sabrina and raymond came aftermath. slack all the way till 2 and all of us headed back home. and i guess im getting more and more lazy to work already. how how how ! and birthday is coming , i got no idea how am i going to celebrate. have to work on the actual day as well. like a boringgggg . shall plan again.

and hope ruiqi faster help me with my blogger background , i wanna change back and this blog gonna be my private blog (: i miss using blogger ): and now i have to think for a new url for my blogger. and i hate it ! it can make my head burst !

alright shall make a move to shower and bed . goodnight all .

Ps/ i hate yet i still care .

there's so much i wanna say, but i'm not gonna type it all out . it's just waste of time typing his thing .

now i see through the real you, if let me choose again i don't even wanna know you as a friend. i don't miss you at all, just think back all the thing you say is fucking rubbish. non of it is true from your heart . you just say it for the sick of saying. don't wanna waste my time typing all this shits.

tomorrow gonna go jb with buddy and jessica (: hopefully i can manage to shop some christmas present there . hope i had fun :D shall continue with my vampire diaries ep 11 ! WEEEEEEE :D

goodnight.

Ps/ you were the wrong decision i made , and i learn my lesson .

things have ended . and back to single. give me sometime to recover and i'll be back. i will be alright , dont worry.

Ps/ at least i know you did tried your best too.

Its our 1st month being together yesterday. and i thought things would gonna be alright after that day. but i was wrong. things just dint turn well at the end of the day, and seems to become worst. and i'm really feeling so tired to face all this things. i don't understand where i did wrong . i did my best to make you happy and try to be understanding whenever you ask me to be. 

whenever you did something i dislike or unhappy , i kept silent and swallow all the unhappy into my stomach and shut up. non of once i complaint i'm unhappy for what you've done. always you'll be the one unhappy with me , or even pissed of with me. and that's when my most torturing time comes. i sometime just need you to put yourself into my shoe and understand how i felt. but i'm always the one giving in the most. i'm also a human being. i do have emotion as well, why can't you just understand me abit?

you will never know how hurt i actually felt. i admit you did gave in now and then. but i don't know why you will still feel unhappy for what i've done. sometimes i just feel like crying so badly, i'm breaking down. i never felt this way before. 我真的感觉到，爱你爱到好痛苦。

i did told you before, i guess to you is nothing. maybe you feel something, but is not important to you . i thought you would be happy yesterday, but till you tell me those thing my heart really sank so deeply. i do feel sad and disappoint when you did something that pissed me off. i kept silent as per normal. but you din't realised. all along you were the one not satisfied with me. in your eyes i'm not perfect. because i'm not, i just wanna be myself. i don't want to be someone whom i , myself can't even recognise. i dislike the way i'm doing.

i'm feeling tired.

i do so much is because i love you.

i really don't want to feel the hurt anymore.

maybe i really need sometime to really think through.

Ps/ i did my best, i really did.